We Found
I was lost for so very long.
Deep in my soul,
Singing a tragic song.
Then, when i had given up all hope.
You
came along,
And carried me back up that slope.
My body torn and frayed.
My heart in anguish,
For i had been betrayed.
When
i woke up that day,
And i saw your deep brown eyes,
I knew that there was something i needed to say.
I found
in you.
the one i was looking for,
my heart and soul once more.
I found in you,
the love Ive needed for so long
i
didn't realize it until you came along.
I found in you,
the person that is perfect to me.
the person that i wish
to be.
You found in me,
all you wanted in a girl
and you let your feelings unfurl.
You found in me,
what
i saw in you.
deep love that is true.
You found in me,
the true person down deep inside
the one that from you
i cant seem to hide.
So now that we have found true love
and now that we have found each other,
The sun finally
shines down from above.
My wounds are healed
my feelings reveled.
Our hearts belong to each other,
and to
no other.
Flamming Memories
Burning memories, thats all i have left
pictures, letters that we wrote.
all in a shoebox that will burn
so
let it burn, burn away the memories.
let it burn, burn away the pain.
let it burn, till there's nothing left about you
let
it burn, burn away the pain, let it burn.
all my memories, so much at the same time
all, going up in flames
I love
you, but i hate you, so much at the same time
so let all the pain burn away.
in a smoky haze, of darkness
so f***
you and all my memories
you hurt me so bad, thats away in the past
cuz now i have my own life
and i didn't need you
anymore
so burn with all the memories
that go up in flames
Dragons Breath
If you where to look at my heart...
you would see cuts so deep and large,
that you would tear yourself apart.
there
are no band-aids or covers for what has happened to me.
all there are is walls, beyond that all you can do is see.
the
walls protect me from getting hurt again.
from the pain i felt when i was shut down,
that i will never feel again.
the walls, if you come to close,
burn you like a dragons breath
fiery and solid, they lock me in and you out.
if
you are able to break down these walls,
and bear the breath of the dragon inside.
then you are meant to be for me,
where no other can abide.
the scars and cuts that cover my heart,
need their time to heal.
if you can help me with
that,
please let me know.
i will push you away, say that i don't care what you say
but deep down it may help me
out
but what ever you do...
beware the dragons breath...
that lingers inside those walls.
Moonlight
as the moonlight his the ground,
stars shining all around.
two people dance,
in eachother inbrace,
alowing no one to take their place.
its no one but them and the song,
together they could be all night long.
no one knows why they are,
it just came down from a star.
and like the moonlight shining bright,
nothing will ever end the night.
for the heavens will touch their hearts forever,
hopefully they'll always be together.
but now as the song ends,
towars eachother they bend.
sharing one eternal kiss,
forever in eternal bliss.
and as the moonlight shines down upon them,
the songs and dance will never end.
~Have You Ever~
have you ever
love someone so much
it made you cry?
have you ever
hurt so bad
that you wish that you'd die
have you ever
known a love so deep
that you could never reach the floor
have you ever
felt like your heart
was slamed in a door
have you ever
felt like you dont know
how much more your soul could die
have you ever
not known that
you had lied
have you ever
wanted so bad that
all you do is dream
have you ever
had someone you could trust
upon their shoulder you could lean
have you ever
wanted forgiveness so bad
that it was all you thought about
have you ever
been so hungry to see someone
that it made your stomach scream
have you ever
been so in love
that nothing would ever change your mind
have you ever
cried so many tears
that water was all you could find
have you ever
said "im sorry" so many times
that you lost count
have you ever
loved so much
that you wanted to scream and shout
have you ever
i have....
I wonder if anyone cares
amongst all these crazy stares
i wish that my sould was free
that way i could be me
but so many people bring me down
they tear me up and throw me around
i once tried to end my life
it would have been taken away by a suicide knife
but then my life took a spin
and my life begain again
u came along
singing one of your crazy songs
u brought a new life
and took away that knife
now i thank you
for what uve helped me through
Friends
we started out as friends
for eachother
we would go to no ends
i was there for u
and u for me
friends we will always be
i loved u once
but that was never ment to be
i always thought u felt the same about me
i was just to blind to see
what u thought we would be
im glad to be ur friend
dont get me wrong
i just wish that i hadent heard that stupid song
and now ur friend ill always be
because u love someone other than me
i wanted to get it over with
i hated my life
so i ended it all
with a suicide knife
i went to heven
and saw all of my friends
and then thought
well this is how it all ends
i never relized the friends i had
i didnt relize they would be so sad
i guess that i should have thought first
now i feel like the worst
ive hurt all of u so much
i wish i could feel just one touch
but my body lies 6 feet under
my soul no longer walks ablunder
what i wouldnt give to take this away
ill just have to see u all another day
im sorry that i hurt u all so much
now i cant even feel your touch
im here above u in the cloud
while my bodies in the ground
i had done so much wrong
i though this would be better all along
but now i regret even doing so
cuz now im even more alone
this is the end
its all over and done with
i have no where to belong
i have tried my whole life
to come along
and make my own song
but ive tried for much to long
and now i see excatly how i wanted to be
that expectation grew and grew
and then it over powered me
now all i see is red
the red is blood from my vien
the opening causin u to go insane
i dont regret it now
how u came along and saved me
but how can that be
it seemed like no one ever cared
i was always so scared
now the end is near
and i have nothing to frear
would u
would u miss me if i was gone
would u miss me long
would u hold me if i cried
or even if u just sighed
would u love me like i do u
u know that ill always be true
woul u still feel the same
if my soul was tame
if i offered u wings to fly
would i not be dynied
would u follow me
no matter where it may be
will u hold me now as i cry
as my soul gradualy dies
will u tell me it will be ok
not to worry about today
because i want to hide
not from u but from everyone
away from the blinding sun
wil u always be the one
will u always come
when i call ur name
will u be the same
would u, will u
take me with u
far far away
some where we can stay
away from the pain
i called and u came
Fly
As I lay here
sourounded by my own blood
my soul flys to heven
away from the mud
this world has torn me up
and spat me out
the chewed up pieces
could fit in a cup
you know i love you
but i couldnt take anymore
my life has finaly
washed ashore
i wasnt murdered or killed
except by my own self
the last book was
put upon the shelf
i once thought
now all i have
are these battle scares
i always thought
i would fly away
who knew that
would happen today
i give you one last kiss
know that ill be sorly missed
but its to late
to go back now
this will stop the pain
anyhow
i thought my life
was like a fire
not sure when to go out
or when to lose desire
you know i love u
and that we'll meet again one day
then your soul will join mine
and we'll fly away.
Always
would u miss me if i was gone
if my soul had no where to belong
i always told myself
that feelings where better left upon the shelf
now there is no life
i was killed by all of my strife
i was killed by a knife
it took away all of my life
i told you i love you
you said you did too
that was so long ago
that i thought you had just let go
now i see your tear streaked face
i know that my sould will have a place
it will be inside your heart always.
The days float by like and endless dream
soon to be torn apart, ripped at the seam
my love for u will never die
cause when im with you i can fly
i know that someday it will come to an end
but even then youll still be my best friend
i want u to know that always
our love will last the for the rest of our days
For You
Ink spreading across the page
We spoke once agian
Of ebracing eachother
In a moment of cannila and nightfall
The days are all alike:
Sorrow filling our hearts,
Tears filling in my eyes,
A cloud falling upon us.
We are learning to love,
Open up,
To take matters into out own hands.
The hope held us tight
For six months my heart so'ared.
Its wings streaching and spreading.
But these moments are finished,
As we opened the door,
Tangled with emotions,
We wispered 'Good-bye.'
Dried Out Roses
Old red roses, dry and dead,
Wilted petals fall instead,
He gave me once to keep.
Those days they lagged like lonlely sleep.
And now they sit ans the has passed,
Alone, withought a love at last.
With shadows of our old love cry,
And wilted roses that wont die.
A phone with no one there to call,
I try to forget but dont at all.
I once left your name there to find,
I called it sweet, true, and kind.
But when i found it, it was gone.
You took it back and then moved on.
And so i sit here, cold and blue,
With nothing more for me to do.
But sit, nothing left to say
And throw the roses all away.
Alone
I didnt want to admit it,
It was easier to lie,
And hide the hurt and emptyness,
To smile instead of cry.
I didnt want to face the fact,
My life is full of pain.
And i long to stop my bleeding heart
And maybe smile agian.
'Cause i feel oh-so-forgotten,
So betraed and so alone,
Without a trace of forgiveness
And no soul to call my own.
I didnt want to admit the fact,
I cannot spread my wings.
And my happiness has melted
Into tears and other things.
It's hard to hide for me to hide the fact,
My wishes have no home.
And return to anguish
Bow my head and cry alone.
The Kiss
It happened so quickly
The world must have shook.
I'd always hoped it would happen
Like it does in a book.
He looked at me softly
And then tuched my hair
I felt so special,
Like he really did care.
He leaned over slowly
My heart upped its pace
Right at that moment
We where face to face.
When his lips touched mine
I thoughts i would melt
His kiss was the sweetest thing
I have ever felt.
Good-Bye (this one is dedicated to Chelsea Cooke, and also to Rachel Dorado)
And so it comes just as
It is a day no longer here
And through my trembling finger
The memories of the year.
I wave farewell to all our dreams,
I will forget you never.
I wonder if all our crazy times
Will stay with u forever.
But as i cry in pain
Of loosing my dear and such good friend.
I will not close the book and say:
"Farwell, This is the end."
For good-byes create swift hellows
And days from now you'll see
That though it hurts to say good-bye
Your friend ill always be.
Someone Special
Theres someone special in my life
Who doesnt know i care.
I wish i could let them know it,
But let it show i wouldnt dare.
I dont want to risk it
I dont want to even try
For if they knew i felt this way
I'd feel insecure and shy.
I never thought i'd feel this way
I never thought i'd care
There's something in that smile of their's
That makes me stop and stare
How can i tell if they like me too?
Will they ever look my way?
I'll keep my feelings hidden for now
And save them for another day.
The Key to My Heart
Late at night,
When i should be alseep,
Into my heart,
You quietly creep.
I sit and ponder,
How it could be,
But you must have stumbled across the key.
I know our friendship
Could mean so much more
But its up to you to open the door.
If Only I Had Known
If only i had known
It was our last walk in the rain,
I'd keep you out for hours int the storm.
I would hond your hand like a lifeline to my heart.
And underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If i had only known
It was our last walk in the rain.
If only i had known
I'd never hear your voice agian.
I'd memorize each thing you said.
And on these lonley nights.
I could think of them once more.
And keep your words alive inside my head
If i had only known
I would never hear your voice agian.
You where the treasure in my heart
You where the one who always stood beside me.
So unaware,
I foolishly believed you'd always be there.
But then there came that day when
I closed my eyes and you slipped away
I only i had known
It was my last night by your side.
I'd pray a miricle would stop the dawn.
And when you smiled at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love for you goes on and on.
If only i had known, if only i had known.
The love i would have shown
If only i had known.
The Pit Of Love
I fixed my eyes upon the pit
And vowed to stay away
And yet the blackness called to me
From where i wished to stay
They say love's one mans folly
And another's key to fame
But love was not an issue
I hated the crying games
Still i wandered toward the pit
It held a strange allure
I'd never been before
Up to the edge i crept
Looking into the abyss.
Though i knew not what awaited me
This change i could not miss
I've lived a sheltered life
I longed to risk it all
I took one more step forward
'Twas there i took my fall
I tried to grab onto the edge
Regretting my new fate
Instead i kept on falling
My efforts were in vain.
Although i landed softly
I sensed a bruise or a scar
But these where often made
In matters of the heart
However, doubt consumed my mind
"Would he ge like the last?"
Untill at length i felt a thouch
It swept the doubt I'd cast
His strong hands pulled me close
As one we climed above
I relized i had fallen safe
Into the arms of love.
Untrue Love
Were you there the day the music died?
Did you want to hold me when i cried?
Did you fight to stand there by side
When i was in despare?
Did you keep me safe within your arms?
Did you protect me from all harm?
Or did you win me over.
Running fingers through my hair?
Did you simply see your chance
to get what you wanted with one dance?
You saw me hurting with one glance
And dicided to fool my heart.
And like a fool i went along
When we danced i sang the songs.
I never thought i could be wrong.
So i gladly played my part.
And now i lie here, wondering why
I ever thought you and I
Could fall in love
And never cry agian for what we've done.
I'm terrified of the way i feel
Now that i know you love isnt real.
I'm not sure my heart will ever heal,
Because all i can do is run.
I run from the future, but mostly the past.
Through fields and the forest so very fast.
Through the moonlight that
Midnight casts onto my crying eyes.
I've prayed that you would dicide to stay,
That i could keep you one more day.
And you wouldnt turn away
and leave me in this place
But ive fooled myself for much to long,
That our love was not a tradgic song.
And i assume you will be gone
No time left to borrow
I'll try and smile when you say good-bye
And wait till your gone to cry.
You'll be strong, and so will i
Though i feel so much sorrow.
And so i'll face this world alone
Cold as ice, hard as stone.
Untill a true love comes along
Ive nothing left to fear
But when our love has been long dead,
When we've moved on to the road ahead,
And im lying wide awake in my bed,
You memory will be here.
Tears
The tears i feel today
I'll wait to shed tomorrow.
Though i'll not sleep this night
Nor find sucress from sorrow.
My eyes must keep their sight.
I dare not be tear blinded,
I must be free to talk
Not choked with grief, clearminded.
My mouth cannot betray
The anguish that i know
Yes, ill keep my tears till later;
But my grief will never go.
Chasm of the Heart
Pebble of old feelings,
And budding flowers of new
Line the bottom of the chasm
where emotions run through
Like a fast and violent tide
Which gives love life,
And cuts down sense and reason
Like a sharp bladed knife
Though these tides sometimes lessen
And the chasm runs dry,
The bitter toots begin to flourish
And the beauty starts to die
the tide will always return
Bringing beauty again with full force
Replenishing blossoms and new hopes
As it swiftly runs its course.
A New Start
She lies among a bed of dreams
In happiness, or so it seems.
For it's been long since life begain,
And her search goes on for holding hands.
What doesnt kill you will make you strong
and strength grows wings to fly upon
She flies on wings so white and pure
for in her dreams she feels secure
Lives of songs and verses in rhyme
Will heal the wounds of bitter time
No longer will she lie in saddness
And put on a smile to hide the madness
You souls that slip away from the tears
Can strenghten hope through the years
And with new strength she'll rist above
Heal her wounds and lean to love.
The Letter Ill Never Send
The letter ill never send
Would calmly ask you why
You broke my heart in two
And told my love goodbye.
If I ever sent this letter
It would sweetly state
You tangled up your destiny
and interupted fate
The letter I will not write
would casually inquire
How can you live without me
I was your one disire
If you recived this letter
It would politely say
You need me in your life now
You cant go this way
The letter ill never send
Would then be briskly signed
"Your one and only Love"
You know, the one you left behind.
To Let Go
To let go isnt to forget, not to think about or ignore
It doesnt leave feelings of anger, jealosy or regret.
Letting go isnt winning and it isnt losing.
Its not about pride and its not about houw you appear
Letting go isnt about blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts
And doesnt leave emptyness, hurt or sadness
Its not giving up or giving in
Letting go isnt about loss, and its not about defeat
To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and move on
It is having an open mind and confidence in the future
Letting go is accetpting
It si learning and experancing and growing.
to let go is to be tankful for the experances that you made you laugh
Made you cry, made you grow
Its about all you have all that you had and will gain
Letting go is having the courage to accept change
And the strength to keep moving
Letting go is growing up
It is realizingthat the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy
To let go is to open a door, to clear a path, and to set yourself new.
At First
At first you feel like crying
and beg God to dry your tears.
You sit and remisise
of all the good times through the years.
You stare at him across the room
and block that you still care
But your in love with the way
he runs his fingers through his hair
And when your sick of crying
but you know you feel the same
You might stop feeling miserable
and instead hand him the blame
He'll ask why your friends still vibe
and you'll turn and walk away
You'll tell him that you hate him
he'll have nothing left to say.
You finaly think its over
and that must still be the end
But then one day your heart stops
as he holds his new girlfriend
And you force yourself to realize
that in time you'll be ok
And the feelings that you felt at first
will slowly fade away.
