What I Want is

What I want is
To be held in your arms
Tucked away from danger
Sheltered from harm

What I want is
To gaze into your eyes
Flickering with color and light
Knowing they hold no lies

What I want is
For your lips to kiss mine
So sweet and sensual
For that moment everything in the world is fine

What I want is
A love that is true
What I want is
You and only you

So Many

There's so many things
I wish I could tell you
So many feelings I wish we would share
So many things I wish we could do

So many times I don't know how
To express myself fully
I wish it were easier
So I could tell you completely

So many times I catch myself
Daydreaming of nothing
But you with me
And more and more I find myself wanting

And so many times I wonder
Do you daydream about me too?
So many times and constantly
I wish, someday, it would be just me and you

Rain

Big drops fall from the sky
They come so fast
Crashing to the ground
A constant shower
Ceasing to break
The sky is a murky gray
The ground slick
And the rain pours down
On me
But the constant shower
Eventually will cease
And the light will come
For after every storm
A rainbow appears
For everyone

Bubble

My life has stopped.
I am in a bubble.
The only one,
who is motionless.
I can't go on.
I'm losing control.
I'm losing myself.
Slowly
falling
apart.
I need help.
But no one sees.
I am in pain.
Because they continue
moving around me,
while I remain motionless.
The only one
in a bubble.

Mixed Emotions

I wish I knew your words were genuine
Because I'm puttin myself out there, on the edge of a limb
I'm feeling voulnerable and almost helpless
I wish I were sure these feelings were pure foolishness
If only I could explain exactly what I'm feeling,
So many mixed emotions and the many thoughts im thinking
I hope you're not taking advantage
My wounds are already too large for a bandage
So many times I've been let down
I don't want you to be added to the list of persons who make me frown
Pictures of us flash before my eyes
And I wonder if it's all just a bunch of lies
Both of us with happy eyes, and bright smiles
But the constant uncertain thoughts roam my mind all the while.

On the Edge

So many feelings
Locked inside a box
Anxiously waiting to escape
Taking control of each other
One dominating another and so on
They need to be freed
Let loose of the restraints that hold them inside
Hopefully sooner than later
For the more time that passes
Brings these feelings
To the edge
Of exploding


Deeper Meaning

Your words
Touch me
Deeply
It's as if you know
Exactly what I'm thinking and
Exactly what I'm feeling

Your words
Carry more meaning
Than I can explain
It's as if you know
Exactly what to say and
Exactly when to say it

Your words
Mean so much
To me
It's as if you know
Exactly how to bring us closer and
Exactly how to show me we have a connection

Never stop
Feeding me
Your words

Let Loose

I'm emotionally drained
I'm tired
I'm sick of being refrained

I wanna scream and let loose
Tell the world what I feel
But I can't get rid of this damn noose

I wanna go crazy and wild
Say what's really on my mind
Have no worries, like a young child

I'm tired of living the life they want me to
Living up to everything they want me to be
And doing everything they want me to do

It's time to be free
Let loose of all this
It's time to be me.

Secret Feelings

Feelings left unshared
Thoughts left unsaid
How I wish I could tell you
What's going on in my head
And heart
It hurts
To keep it inside
And not let you know
That there's something I'm feeling
That I no longer want to hide
Or keep it all locked up
But its even harder
To find the right words
To tell you my
Secrets
That I continue to leave
Unsaid
And
Unshared

Listen

You don't listen to me
You don't even try
To understand where I'm coming from
Goes in one ear
And out the other
If it even went in at all
I'm to the point
Of saying
Screw all this
I wont even attempt
To get through to you
Because I know
No matter how hard I try
Nothing I do will work
Why don't you listen?
Hear the words I'm saying
I'm trying to communicate with you
But it's no use
You cut me off
Without a say
Can't you see I'm trying?
Why can't you try too?
Communication takes two
You know

Tangled Web

I'm trapped
In this
Tangled web
She
Weaves.
I see
No
Way out.
I'm
Too far
Gone
To be
Found.
I
Want
Out.
No one
Hears
My silent
Screams.
No one
Sees
My invisible
Tears.
I
Want
Out.
I'm
Too far
Gone
To be
Found.
I see
No
Way out.
I'm trapped
In this
Tangled web
She
Weaves.

Untitled (for now)

I sit
Here
Asking
Myself
Why
Did I really deserve this?
What did I do wrong?
I sit
Here
By
Myself
Wondering
Could things have been different?
Why did this have to happen?
I sit
Here
Away from
Myself
Watching
The lonely girl
Who once was me, but is no more.